I feel so much for myself, i don't even know where to start, i don't even know how to start. I wish i know what's going inside my head. Sometimes, it hurts too much to know so many things.. i just assume that everyone will hate me, everyone will find me annoying, and the best part is, we don't know each other well.

Do you know how it feels to be the odd one out? You might think i'm fine with it, but the truth is, i'm used to it. I stare and zone out if i have to cause, i'm not talking, not even interacting. All i do is blur out the face of a stranger, stranger who walk pass me, i do my own thinking most of the time.

I'm really trying my best to do the best i can, but i doesn't seem to work, or neither does it work out even after chatting. I feel horrible for making the effort, i feel like shit, i feel everything, i feel fuck up for trying, i over think most of the time and, i guess i'm done trying.

Monday, May 1, 2017
@ 12:49 AM